Nyx

Oh hai! I has a new kitteh

Fri, 13 Mar 2009 03:48:24 GMT

Meet Jorma..the newest addition to our fambly!

snickerdoodles ; america's answer to the churro

Wed, 18 Feb 2009 06:22:51 GMT

friends, i now know the secret to america's snickerdoodle obsession..
the snickerdoodle is simply white america's answer to the churro.
i know, it sounds crazy, but it's true.
along with stealing other people's land, committing the first ever act of genocide..and our love for spreading democracy..america has one other favorite pasttime..and it's not baseball people...
it's bastardizing food from other nations...
this is not to say it's not good..just perhaps a rip off..
the french fry is another good classic...this one was a blatant rip off...
the snickerdoodle was more like an inside job....

This is what it feels like to be in love...

Sun, 28 Dec 2008 11:23:18 GMT

I loved you, so what.

Sat, 27 Dec 2008 03:28:24 GMT

I never really stopped..

Goals

Mon, 22 Dec 2008 21:54:15 GMT

I aim to be 155 and at least a definite size 8 or 9 in pants by february.
It's not going to be easy, but I will do it.
If it means that for a while I'm going to be dropping off the face of the earth and the only people that see me are my family and my boyfriend..sorry and so be it.

It's not a new years resolution..just something I've been wanting to do.
I'm doing it because I love my body! I want to be as healthy and happy as I can be!
I've decided I'm going to document what it's going to be like on a different livejournal.
If you want to add me, you can..It won't be hard to find me if you try..

I also want to get my ass in gear as far as driving goes!

I love my life.

Tue, 14 Oct 2008 04:34:45 GMT

Mon, 01 Sep 2008 08:19:17 GMT

I love to watch you blush, and when our hues match to show the shared blame, I can't help but feel as though
I've received a gift.
I wish that I had a photographic memory so I could make a scrapbook of you and I..That way I would know for certain that you'll always be in the back of my mind.

I can't make promises to you because a promise can be broken and that's just not the kind of girl I am.
Risk management is my side hobby, and even though you're a 'high risk applicant'...I've got you covered.

<3

I love Dane Cook no matter how played-out he is.

Sun, 24 Aug 2008 22:07:11 GMT

THREE NAMES YOU GO BY:
1. Samantha
2. Sam_E_Danger
3. Sam

THREE SCREEN NAMES YOU HAVE HAD:
1. chocokat2000
2. bonddgirrl
3. Mascary109

THREE PHYSICAL THINGS YOU LIKE ABOUT YOURSELF:
1. My eyes.
2. My legs.
3. My hands

THREE PHYSICAL THINGS YOU DON’T LIKE ABOUT YOURSELF:
1. According to my doctor, I am overweight..
2. My eyebrows are downright ridonkulous if I don't tweeze them into submission.
3. I don't know how to do a bridge.

THREE PARTS OF YOUR HERITAGE:
1. Italian
2. Portuguese.
3. Scottish

THREE THINGS THAT SCARE YOU:
1. Not using my time to best of my abilities.
2. Failure : Not using my potential.
3. Burning out.

THREE OF YOUR EVERYDAY ESSENTIALS:
1. Water!
2. Trips to the "outside world".
3. People, or at least the ones I enjoy.

THREE THINGS YOU ARE WEARING RIGHT NOW:
1. The flats that smell like death.
2. The mini-skirt that everyone other than my mom loves.
3. A pink shirt ( oh noes, sammy done gone and shopped at AMERICAN EAGLE).

THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE BANDS OR MUSICAL ARTISTS: (my current favorites!)
1. Jack's Mannequin / SoCo
2. Black Flag
3. Jawbreaker.

THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE SONGS: (three right now, i have too fucking many)
1. Made For Each Other/ You Can Breathe - Jack's Mannequin
2. Wasted & Ready-Ben Kweller.
3. You're As Cold As Ice! - Foreigner <- Yeah, I know.

THREE THINGS YOU WANT IN A RELATIONSHIP:
1. Musical COMPATIBILITY! (I mean, COME ON!, who doesn't want sing-a-longs?)
2. Stupid inside jokes.
3. Honesty.

TWO TRUTHS AND A LIE (in no particular order):
1. Somebody once called me a "West End Girl" and I was flattered.
2. I have a legit drinking problem.
3. I have a shoe fetish..

THREE PHYSICAL THINGS ABOUT THE PREFERRED SEX THAT APPEAL TO YOU:
1. Intense eyes.
2. Strong arms/big hands.
3. The ability to lift me.

THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE HOBBIES:
1. Drawing.
2. Writing.
3. Traveling.

THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO REALLY BADLY RIGHT NOW:
1. Roadtrip.
2. SkinnyDip.
3. Laugh until I can't breathe.

THREE CAREERS YOU’RE CONSIDERING/YOU’VE CONSIDERED:
1. Make-Up Artist
2. Tattoo Artist
3. Masiuesse .

THREE PLACES YOU WANT TO GO ON VACATION:
1. Europe.
2. Cuba.
3. Fiji.

THREE KID’S NAMES YOU LIKE: (In no particular order)
1. Rufio.
2. Magdalena.
3. Ronnie.

THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO BEFORE YOU DIE:
1. Have children.
2. Have a career I can be proud of.
3. Share mutual love with another human being.

THREE WAYS THAT YOU ARE STEREOTYPICALLY A GIRL:
1. I love make-up.
2. I fall easily for "bad boys"
3. I can cook and clean better than your mom.

THREE WAYS THAT YOU ARE STEREOTYPICALLY A BOY:
1. I want to have sex, and lots of it .
2. I want to be gone down on.
3. I don't like to admit when I'm wrong.

DFDF

Sun, 30 Dec 2007 09:55:31 GMT

*Situation undercontrol*

Thanks Jackson.

I have laryngitis..at least I'm not sick.

Wed, 26 Sep 2007 00:46:12 GMT

1. List seven habits/quirks/facts about yourself.
2. Tag seven people to do the same.
3. Do not tag the person who tagged you or say that you tag "whoever wants to do it."

One.I absolutely adore cooking and baking for people. It's something I wish I could do for all of my friends at least once. I don't know why but I guess it's just one of the ways I show my love for them.

Two.I'm pretty sure I have an oral fixation. I'm not really embarassed about it..I just get mad when people act like I'm trying to be sexy by telling them about it...I put random things in my mouth instead..like paperclips,bottle caps, pen caps,and random plastic bits..

Three.Generally I'm very talkative and happy-go-lucky..If you see me and you think something's up, if I'm not sick or swamped with work..No mattter what..something is wrong. I'm either angry or sad.Even if I tell you something isn't wrong, I'm most likely just trying to keep it in.

Four. I'm an incredibly maternal person for some reason. I don't know why, but I am.
I like to take care of people,watch out for them and protect them. Don't ask me why, but I get all motherly when someone's upset,sick,hurt,dealing with a break-up,in danger, or not having a good day. They nicknamed me Mama Bear at camp.

Five. When I get new music on my iTunes I listen to it obsessively.For weeks I live off of my "Recently added" playlist. I don't know why..I just do.

Six. If I like someone, I'm horrible about keeping it inside and making it seem like I don't. I've never been good about keeping that a secret. Maybe it's because I always figured that it never hurts to get your name out there, I mean you never know how the other person feels untill you try.

Seven. I have a temper. I think I get that from my mom and (birth)dad.
It doesn't take much to frustrate me or make me mad..but you have to work pretty hard to get me angry.

I tag everyone who reads this peice o' shite.

I'm dead....

Tue, 25 Sep 2007 07:26:48 GMT

Well, not really..but I dont have a voice, I'm exhausted and I still have hw and a shitload of chores to do..
Fuck.
Tonight was fun though..
It almost made me into a misanthrope though..
dfdfdfsf

*sigh*'

Someone come over, I'll sneak you in and we can spoon...

Pointless crap to help you get to know me..

Mon, 24 Sep 2007 14:06:33 GMT

RED = ANGER

1. Are you currently mad at someone:
Nope, just frustrated.

2. Which of your family members has the worst temper:
My mom.

3. Have you ever thrown something at anyone:
Not to intentionally hurt them, but yes, a few paper balls have been known to fly out of my hand every now and then

4. Does your face turn red when you’re angry:
Yeah, I think so, but only when I'm really angry.

5. When you’re mad do you prefer to stare angrily or yell:
Depending on how angry I am, I could do both.

ORANGE = EXCITEMENT

1. Has anyone ever thrown a surprise party for you:
Yes:)

2. Are you easily excited:
Hah, about some things, yes.

3. What event is coming up that you’re most excited about:
I guess this weekend, if that counts as an event..

4. If you won a million dollars, what would be your first thought:
New clothes/shoes.

5. If you could have anything right now what would it be:
The option to do my schoolwork from home, so I wouldn't have to actually go to school.
I could just do my work, and then go outside, or go to Berkeley.

YELLOW = SELF DISCOVERY

1. Name:
Samantha

2. Birthday:
May 25th

3. What’s your main goal in life:
To achieve as many of my goals and dreams as I can.

4. Do you want to have children:
Not now. I think at some point, definitely.

5. How do you want to die:
Happy and with no regrets.

GREEN= OPINIONS

1. Are you against gay marriage:
NO. I can't imagine why someone would be either.

2. Lower the drinking age:
Yeah,sure. Only because at 18 you can legally by cigarettes and porn, and you're also allowed to join the military and go kill people in foreign countries, I think you can also buy guns at 18 too. I think it's stupid that at 18 you can get a license to kill pratically and yet..you can't go buy alcohol..

3. Capital Punishment:
I don't know..I don't know enough about it to really have any opinion.

4. Abortion:
I believe in a woman's right to choose, and if she chooses to have any abortion then so be it.
People need to respect that. There are so many reasons I believe in them, or at least the right to one..
I kind of go all feminist when I talk about it.

5. Democrat or Republican:
Democrat,as a woman how could I not be?

BLUE = LOVE

1. Do you love someone:
Not romantically..

2. Do you have a bf/gf:
Nope.

3. Is it better to have loved and lost than never loved at all:
I'm not sure. I mean at least when you've loved and lost, you know what the feeling is like..
but then afterward, I'm sure everything sucks and you probably chalk everything else in your life up to those
fantastic moments with that person..
I think I'd have to go with never loving at all..at least you can't get hurt..

4. Do you believe in love at first sight:
No.

5. Would you tattoo your lovers name on your body:
Not unless they died.
Those kinds of tattoos are the kiss of death to relationships..

PURPLE = Q&A

Q: How many beds did you lay in today:
1

Q: What color shirt are you wearing:
What shirt?

Q: Name one thing that you do everyday:
Wake Up

Q: How much cash do you have on you right now:
I don't know exactly.

Q: Look to your left. What’s there:
My wall.

Q: What’s the last piece of clothing you borrowed from someone:
I think I last borrowed a sweater from someone

Q: What website(s) do you visit the most during the day:
Myspace/Facebook/LJ

Q: Do you have plants in your room:
Nah

Q: Does anything hurt on your body right now:
Random muscles.

Q: What city was your last taxi cab ride in:
San Francisco

Q: Do you own a picture phone:
Oui.

Q: Recent time you were really upset:
I haven't really been upset in a few weeks.

PINK = LAST

1. Person you saw:
My step-dad

2. Person that said they loved you:
My mom :)

3. Movie watched in cinema:
Superbad:)

4. Song you listened to:
Eryn Smith-The Matches

5. Person you talked on the phone with:
James Dean..rofl

GREY= TODAY

1. What are you doing right now:
Getting ready for school

2. What are you doing tonight:
Homework?

3. What are you going to eat:
No idea.

4. Did you accomplish anything today:
Considering it's only 7:01, no.

5. What shoes are you wearing:
I'm barefoot.

BROWN= TOMORROW

1. Is:
Probably going to suck.

2. My plans are:
Classes,homework,guitar,fucking around on the computer,phone?,and musiccc

3. Are you going to laugh:
Yes:)

4. Any TV show you watch coming on:
I dont really watch tv.

5. Do you know what you will eat:
Breakfast,Lunch,and Dinner.

camera 1, camera 2

Sun, 23 Sep 2007 07:33:28 GMT

I wish I were here :

Everything about it is what I need/want in life.
Blegh.
I'm moody for some reason. I think maybe it's cause I'm tired.
MErr..

SFindiefest is coming up soon..I'm not sure I'll have the time to go, but if I do..
I might have to round up a posse..or perhaps just one or two other people who appreciate this sort of thing.I mean they are indie documentaries ,so..who knows.s.
I'm in the process of looking up some of the trailers..

I talked to Max last night for like a bajillion hours again,only not so much because homeboy is sick and he needed to at least try and go to bed at a reasonable hour..Which was understandable.
He sounded all stuffy and nasily..Which was adorkable.
I think it's funny that we've only known each other for like ..3 days-ish.
djflkjdf

I hope that hoe gets better.

I told him last night I was going to blog about him telling his friends about the whole "james dean" comment..and I did..
haha..
oh well.
I don't mind. In ten years, it's not like this will matter anyway....

skjdflk

I hate you Max Jackson

Sun, 23 Sep 2007 05:43:59 GMT

yous a douche bag.
i h8 choo..

my life is pointless..
gahhhh

He is no longer James Dean in my eyes.....
Loser..

sdlfkjlkdjflkjdfjkldjlfkjlkdjflkjdflkjdsf
hahaha

oh dear.

Oh man

Sat, 22 Sep 2007 20:31:43 GMT

I just took the best shower ever, and I shaved..WOOOTTT..
This means I can spend all day rubbing them together in between doing loads of laundry.

I put my contacts in after the shower and I was really impressed..
This is the first time I've been able to just pop em' in without any blinkage,fall-age, or smudgyness.

It looks crappy outside.
I kinda want to go for a walk while I put my laundry on, but I don't know if I'm motivated..
Plus, my head phones are broken and I dont feel like walking up to Mira Vista without music.
I might just take a nap and do some homework.

I was going to call people and drag them out so we could chill..
but then I got sidetracked.
..

I contemplated deleting some of the old entries from last year..but I didn't.
It's not that I didn't want to...it's just that I didn't really feel like it was something I absolutely had to do..I mean..some of them are embarassing and stupid..but in my defense..I've changed.
Plus, I know someday we're going to need laughs from highschool and I want to make sure I've got something to contribute..

I just slept in and woke up on my own...

Sat, 22 Sep 2007 18:23:39 GMT

Life is good.

I'm kind of proud of myself, it's been a while since I last bit my nails and their getting long and pretty.
I don't know how long it'll last though...considering I do play guitar..and when I get stressed I bite my nails..
Oh well..at least my mom's gotten off of my case about it.. I think as long as I don't do it in front of her, she's fine..I mean I don't bite them down to the nubs or anything..
That's fucking ridiculous..
It's unhealthy how long I could rant about that sort of thing.

In other news..I'm diligently hatching a plan to help one of my best friends get the boy she wants..
No one knows for sure if he likes her yet, but I think she has a chance. She really is a catch :).
I just hope she doesn't end up getting hurt. Hopefully I can work some magic..

Merrrr. I'm wrapped up in blankets..and I have no plans for today whatsoever...awesome..
I don't really have much else to say...other than lately I've been listening to a lot of Third Eye Blind, The Decemberists, and Bjork..

I think I'm just going to post a Saturday morning playlist...

1.Bitches ain't shit-Ben Folds
(There aren't words to describe the fantastic car sing a long we had on the trip
to the movies in that small-ass town....Oh man..a car full of teenage girls..and 20something year old Colin, singing/blasting this.Good ass times..
Plus, it's actually a good cover..)

2. Love Me-The Cardigans
(Before you go all music elitist on me and tell me this song is crap..
Think back to the mid 90's..you know your ass was totally singing it whenever it came on the radio..
Besides..it's just so damn catchy.)

3.Rudie Can't Fail-The Clash
(Yes, yes,yes and more yes. This is just one of those songs that I can prett much always
listen to.
Pointless random fact:When I got London Calling in like 7th/8th grade..it stayed in my cd player for ages..I used to play London Calling ,Rudie Can't Fail, and Spanish Bombs..over and over again.)

4.The Infanta-The Decemberists
(I have so much love for this song it's not even funny.
Everything about this song just kind of pushes my buttons..)

5.In The Lost and Found (Honky Bach)-Elliott Smith
(I fell in love with this song the moment I heard it.
It reminds me of summer and the ending is enough to make me want to cry..
The last 50 seconds or so is just the music fading away..but not in anyway I've ever
heard before..it's kind of depressing)

6.Jumper-Third Eye Blind
(Sometimes I wish I could live in a cheesey romantic comedy from the 90's so that I could have this on my sountrack.)

7.Child Star-The Unicorns
("are you visceral viscous?
do you want to make love to my sweet visage,
and then pretend it's you, it's you
it was always you")

8.I Know What Boys Like-The Waitresses
(It's classic..)

9. El Scorcho-Weezer
("I wish I could get my head out of the sand
'Cuz I think we'd make a good team
And you would keep my fingernails clean
But that's just a stupid dream that I won't realize
'Cuz I can't even look in your eyes Without shakin', and I ain't fakin'
I'll bring home the turkey if you bring home the bacon"

Someday I'll put this on a mix cd for someone special..
and if I'm lucky..they'll see past the mass cheesiness and love it.)

10.Fell In Love With a Girl-The White Stripes
(I get down like nobodies business to this song..
I love how simple it is.)

11.Center of Gravity-Yo La Tengo
(It was either this or Sugarcube..But I figured we'd take it down a notch considering the last song was pretty fast/loud. )

12.Hey-The Pixies
(I dont think anything can be said for this song..other than that it's incredible.
I dont pretend to be the world's most hardcore pixies fan..But I love this song..
and Doolittle is one of the few albums I wish I could have written.)

THE END..

xo
Sammy

FJLDJFL

Sat, 22 Sep 2007 05:36:51 GMT

Those are my latest creations.
The first one, if I'm right, was something I just kind of did off-hand one night while I was flipping through my ipod. It ended up becoming my image for Mrs.Smith's "The Essence of Beauty" assignment.. It was a last minute decision, but I fell in love with my concept.

The second one is a freehand I did while watching Night of the Living Dead one night.
I got really bored with the black and whiteness of it..so I colored it in..
Overall I think it turned out pretty well.

This is just something I banged out last minute the other day..

Fri, 21 Sep 2007 06:40:59 GMT

It’s a good thing I’m not insecure-

Otherwize I would be really uncomfortable with this right now and totally doubt almost every move I make.
------------------------------------------------------------------------
This is it.
The audition.
It's here, and I'm ready.
I'm scanning the room,
I can't help but smile.
It's always the same year after year.
No competition...
Nothing to be afraid of other than the same old demons...

Then the door opens, and suddenly I'm staring into the same pairs of eyes.
Suddenly there are more of them.
And suddenly I feel I'm not the only one going out for this part.

This is what I'm up against...

She sparkles..just like the first snow of the year.
First I'm inrigued.
Then I panic.
What if I'm not good enough?
What if my audience prefers her to me?

On the outside I'm smiling, but on the
inside I'm shaking.
I feel hollow and numb.
Backstage I hear applause while I'm biting my nails down to the nub.

I hear whistles as I cower behind the heavy blue house curtains.
Am I really next?
Could I really follow that act?
Swallowing hard I collect myself.

I know I've only got until the end of the critique, but something inside
me hasn't kicked in yet.

Sitting at the vanity mirror, my reflection is frowning at my feeble attempts to smile.
I'm powdering my face like a madwoman.
I'm trying to fix the caked-on, smeared-off mascara.
I'm trying to make this work.
Can I pull it off?

Onstage, my legs are shaking.
Despite the familiar faces staring back at me with warm smiles,
I'm sick to my stomach.
Despite the fact that I've memorized my peice, inside and out..
I feel lost.
Slowly I begin, easing into it with a smile I had saved-up just in case...

The crowd doesn't seem to notice my voice wavering toward the end, infact I think I see their hands up in anticipation.
I glace to the side quickly, and with a flip of my hair I can see her in the wings.
Is she nervous?
Why do I care?
When I catch her eye I almost trip over my last lines.

I finish finally, basking in my applause.
Does she see me as a threat?
No, she seems relaxed, perhaps happy for me..
Why is she so nice?

I know I'm the old crowd favorite, but a part me wonders if
I'm going to be replaced...
Could I be the understudy for once?

I'm torn between : "If you only knew how much this meant to me...."
and "I could care less."

I see my publicist and my manager talking in hushed voices when I make my way back stage and I know just what they're saying..

They're saying maybe it's time for a new look,
maybe I should try a new role.
Or perhaps, it's too late..
Could I be past my prime?
Am I too dried up to revive, like a household plant deprived from
water for too long?

Maybe I am.

Only time will tell.

'Don't call us, we'll call you'

__________________________________________________________________________________________________

I think Speedway is the ultimate Morrissey song.
Musically and lyrically.
It's got it all..
and yet, I still feel like I need a reason to justify me listening to it by myself in the dark.

xo

lovecake

Thu, 06 Sep 2007 06:31:57 GMT

This year hasn't been that bad so far considering it's only like the first week or two, I think I kind of enjoy it. There's a couple new faces around our lunch time spot and I'm semi into one of them.
When I found out what his name was, I was instantly put off. Not that names really matter to me, but come on, why does the cute new guy have to have the same name as my creepy loser ex boyfriend from freshmen year. The thing I find hilarious, is that he's awkward, and shy..Whereas I'm very blunt and outgoing. The two personalities clash, and yet..I somehow feel they'll end up working out..this boy (who is going to need a nickname very soon) needs to get his haircut (or so he says, I think he looks cute as pie already...) and he was like 'man, I just want to get my haircut', and I kind of half-joking,half-serious looked over and went, 'I'll do it..' Guess what? I'm doin it! I told him I'm going to make it look like Peter Pan and he just laughed. I don't want to be high and mighty, but I don't think this kid has had a girl pay attention to him like this ever. Either that or he's been hurt/ is clearly not interested. I think the former is more likely considering he does willingly accept my hugs (HE LET ME HUG HIM THE FIRST DAY WE MET) and he tends to halfsmile when we talk about things.

I don't know. I have the strangest feeling lately that I'm going to need to make a very important decision soon and I wish I knew what it was...
Hopefully it doesn't have to do with school or boys..
Those two are giving me trouble right now..But for the most part they aren't that bad..

OH OH..and I almost hooked up with Jesse H. and This one guy who looks like john stamos...
To better describe the amazingness of these two boys you need to realize the caliber of their beauty..
Yeah..
Oh and I'd like to point out that (the newkid) is in MY GRADE!
So he's total prom date material, even though he'd probably rather not go..I just might make him...
Jesse is a year older than me..BUT ONLY A YEAR
I'm getting better at not attracting older dudes.....

<3
I'm gonna go listen to shakey bones and think of the wonderful boys in my life..

The funny thing about these boys..is that they have absolutely no substance..

Boys and girls, guys and dolls

Tue, 28 Aug 2007 13:58:47 GMT

Dear El Cerrito High,

Please rage more..

Thankyou

xox

The killah vanillah..

ps

Fuck school starting today / not wearing white after labor day..
I think I'm going to purposly do that..

pps

someone get me a rootbeer keg for my 17th birthday party...

Could you tell me the next time that you're choking?

Thu, 12 Jul 2007 08:44:27 GMT

I'll run right over to shove some dirt right down your throat.

Any cardiologist with any kind of credentials would seriously be concerned for me if they had observed the absurd speed at which my heart was beating today.
And any normal person with half a brain who knew why my heart was beating like a small rodent's would seriously question my sanity and probably what I find attractive.

Skye and I made an entire movie theater full of people want to punch us in the mouth..and she got shh'd by a fat ladyy during the fucking musical interlude..
I'm sorry that stupid people can't get the fact that the lighting and music did invoke a fucking buttload of emotion that probåbly could have/did over power us talking quietly about how 'the twinz' were hot if you had half a brain!
Stupid twerpzz.
We were not foiled though.
Oh no.

I broke my diet for some Gilatto. Was totally amazing and I have no regrets.
I do however have a headache.

I've been lurking Andy Zarian and Dave Cronin's journals for dayz.
I must say they provide insight into the boy world and are quite hilarious most of the time. Sometimes I read the entries and I relate so much it's creepy.
Especially since I've started lurking the old entries as well.
I decided that Dave Cronin and I are platonic soulmates..

Boo and yah.

I also decided that I don't really know what I want to do, no matter how much I talk about it and seem secure with my plans. I honestly just want to live and have fun.
I decided I'm also kind of cool with that..

Today I realized that I'm actually a junior and this is fucking major.
The hardest year is ahead of me and I just hope that I can stomach it and give my all.
I hope I score good on the tests and turn in all my shit.
I also hope that I don't burn the fuck out.

This summer has been one of the best summers of my life.
I love it.
This last school year was great too.
Horrible in some areas, and great it most.

I really wish I knew how many people read this thing.
Or if I'm just talking to dead air.
I really don't care, especially considering I really only write to get shit off of my chest or put my thoughts somewhere...
I'm just curious.

Anywho.I'm gonna leave so I can go create..
I have a feeling this morning is going to treat me very well..

xox.
Sam_E_Danger [has a headache]

ps
Listening to old voicemails fucking rules.
I just listened to my grandparents sing Happy Birthday to me for my 16th birthday this year via voicemail<3.
I got teary-eyed. I'm not going to lie. I don't think I'll e.v.e.r delete that shit.

I also listened to Biscuit drunk dialing me one night.
Aka the night I was fucking bawling and thought I was going die.
Aka the night that I was so angry I was going to crack skulls..
I have great friends, that message made me feel so included and not isolated..
(especially since being the only edge kid in my group can sometimes take its toll.
especially since i also wanted to kill myself I was so upset.)

I then proceeded to listen to Tomacz (or however the fuck you spell it) nervously leave me a message asking me to chill. I love that kid..he's good people..

Then Skye asking me to go on a "date" with her to HP. :) We're great.

Thennnnnnnnnn I nerded the fuck out and listened to Max's voicemail twice.
His voice sounds REALLY good over the phone.

Gah.
I'm leavin for real I swea

Traveling swallowing Dramamine..(Camp in T-minus 5 days-ish)

Tue, 10 Jul 2007 10:51:28 GMT

Today Julia and I both woke up wayy too early and went to the gym.
We had fun talking and joking. I ♥ that girl. She makes me feel like I'm actually funny. She also has this weird way of making me feel really nerdy, yet also very cool..
How does that work out? I don't even know. We're great..That's how.
Yeah it was fun. Afterward we scampered around Telegraph and had sweet hangs.
I ate olives and drank diet rootbeer for lunch.
Then I beasted some Yogurt Park. I've decided that I love Yogurt Park way too much.
It's heavenly,much like oogling pictures of Justin Pence.
Yeah, I said it. His hair is amazing. Anyway...

A while ago I stole Kiera's pen and I have no intention of giving it back.
Ever. It's literally been like weeks and she either a) hasn't noticed, b)doesn't care, or c) has been obsessing over it but has given up on talking to me about it now, as too much time has passed for me to feel guilty about it and she realizes this.
I mean seriously. It's literally one of the greatest pens I have ever had the extreme pleasure in using.
And I love pens, believe you me, pen shopping is a serious business.

Speaking of pen shopping, I just realized that another school year is creeping up on us and I for one am quite excited for 3 REASONS..1)SCHOOL SUPPLY SHOPPING!!
Gahh I can't wait. Buying MORE PENS, mechanical pencils, notebooks that will end up becoming half-assed journals full of drawings and gossip instead of , you know.."notes"..I'm also way excited to get a new backpack....!!

2) PROM!
Fuck yes. I get to get to through the ever awkward process of either a) asking someone , or b) pressuring someone into asking me by word of mouth..
B probably won't happen unless the people I want to ask aren't available.
I'm kind of actually feeling cocky about it. I have two people I'm going to ask.
I'm probably going to ask Alex W first and then if he's not able to go or isn't interested..I'll ask Max G. If he's busy getting his senior ball shit then I'm kind of fucked..Considering I don't want to take another Junior..None of the Junior's I'd want to take would say yes..(I know this for a fact.) Cause we're all too close / know too much about each other..Oh yeah..or fucking Yoline has dated them.
Ugh.
I really hope I don't have to resort to asking someone I don't really want to go with.
I mean fuck. I'm not going to settle. If I'm really hard pressed I'll go with the girls..

Reason 3(One of the coolest I'd say.) I have a fucking car! (Well almost, I've gotta get my permit [and be nice to my moms and] then it's mine for real.) I named it the "millenium falcon". It's a sweet-ass grey volvo, with leather interior, heated seats, a tape player (can you say IPOD ADAPTER!) and a tape player..OH YEAH..and it's a four doorrrr..with a trunk..Pretty fuckin sweet if I do say so myself.
Oh yeah..and the other cool thing about the millenium falcon, is that IT'S GOT FUCKING TURBO..(I mean seriously..I'll make the fucking Kessell Run under less than 12 parsecs!) <-wow..uber nerd moment..

So that's what life is like for me..
Later today me and the moms are going shopping for some stuff before camp.
I NEED to get some shorts, replace a pair or two of my jeans and get a pair of sweats.
But..I WANT to get a flannel and some thermal shirts as well..
I also kind of really want to get some more patches for my jacket and some tights.. but that's what Berkeley is for.

Wednsday I think I'm having Julia over or we're going to do something on our own in SF.
I don't know what's up with that, but we'll figure it out as we go along.
It should be fun either way. That girl's one of my closest friends..

Thursday = ROPESWING BITCHES!
I'm so fucking excited..I don't know if I can bring food or not cause I'm on my crappy diet..but I'll whip something up that tastes good if I can and just eat something healthy in the corner.
I do intend to roll up there and hug everyone super long.
I'm going to miss them all while I'm at camp.

Friday=Possible "post-peru" hangs with Ainsley.
She's finally back and we're probably just gonna chill and talk shit.
I don't know what our plans entail just yet..but I'm fucking excited.
I haven't seen her since June. I am not okay with this..

Saturday = Last full day in civilization..
I'm making people come out and see me..or we're going to Gilman.
Something's gotta happen..but I want to see people.
Not shitty people either. (I know that's a given but seriously..lately people have been getting on my last ever loving mother fucking nerve.)
Also packing and last minute runs to longs/target.

Sunday= SHIPPPED OFF TO CAMP!<3
Fuck that's gonna be sweet.
I get a nametag....I get to see amazing people..
Breathe fresh air, use my body the way the camp gods intended and lose my voice after the 3rd day..
Ballin'!

Dear World,
I love life.

Sincerely,
Samantha Tryon

P.s.

In the event that I somehow end up dying before seeing 2*sweet live..Julia has been instructed to message 2*Sweet and tell them that their biggest fan has perished.
In that message she is also supposed to ask them to come to my funeral and play one or two songs..
I'm also thinking of writing down my password on a peice of paper and locking it up , then telling her where the key would be so that she could unlock said box and update my myspace letting everyone know I'm dead.
I'd like the most recent picture of me (that's good.) up with the caption being a picture of my fucking death notice.
Oh yeah..and someone can fight with her over who gets to update my profile..
I'd like to still have a ridiculous amount of photos on myspace..so how about you guys take a lot of good pictures of me at the funeral and of yourselves at the wake and then post them up on an album that says "SAM_E_DANGER'S FUNERAL 07 " (Or whatever year it is.. )

Oh yeah..and someone might want to update my lj.
Shit. I better get on this.
WHO WOULD CHECK MY EMAIL!?
I got a lot of spam that needs to be deleted..=/.
Damn.
I wonder what my parents would do with my computer/room after I died..
It'd be cool if they left it how it was and then let my friends come in and chill every now and then..
I don't know..I'm a creep.

I'm working a on a last will and testiment on Microsoft Word right now..as well as what I'd like my headstone to say.
I dont think I want to be buried..but I really do want a headstone so that people can come visit me or something..

Wow..
But yeah..
I love life..
<3
That's all.

Dressed in leather, red ball and vault attire..

Mon, 09 Jul 2007 07:10:33 GMT

1. Where did your last kiss take place?
San Francisco/The Gilman.

2. Who knows a secret or two about you?
I'm very open..So I'd say a lot of people know my "secrets".
I don't know..I'm not very secretive..But there are things I just choose to not bring up in normal conversation with people I'm not close to simply because they either wouldn't care/ I don't really trust them. When I think about ,it's not like any of my secrets are really all that great.

3. Three words to explain why you last threw up?
Mother fucking fentons ♥

4. Have you ever burned yourself?
Oh jeez. On accident? All the times.

5. What's crazy to you?
This sumer :)

6. Favorite cuss word:
Hmm..Probably...Motherfucker.

7. Who is probably talking a load of crap about you right now?
People who don't like me? Or people who do like me but are irritated with me..

8. Who is your hero?
Probably my mom, and a lot of people that I've encountered in my life.
I just realized that I've been very lucky to encounter some of the world's most amazing people.

9. Would you ever want to be a model?
Yes, of course ; Although if it means that I will have to sacrifice my health or values/morals during the course of my career then I think I would have to pass.

11. Do you tell white lies?
Occasionally, although lately I think it's been more the game of deception than anything.

12. When is the next party?
Thursday?! :)

13. Who do you want to be with right now?
Platonically?
Platonically, I'd like to go to the field and kick it with "the lunch crew" and some other people who know who they are. I'm hoping I see them ALL on thursday.
Oh and everyone from camp!
Plus..both Julia's!

15. How do you handle a break up?
Hmm. Usually I'm frustrated so I'd say it can be broken down into stages.
I get really confused and I write a lot. I say a lot and I call a lot of people..Then I move on and grow as a person. I don't usually dwell on those types of things. I take them in stride. So I'd say ,if you get past all the shit.. I get through break ups pretty well ;Although the amount of shittalking can be insane if the guy was a total douche-bucket.

16. Your motivation for tomorrow?
Monday!! My motivation?Music! :) Oh and Julia!:)

17. Last person to hurt you?
One of my friends, although it's really not a big deal.

18. Last person to make you laugh?
My mom.

19. Last thing you ate?
Salad! :)

20. Do you ever change your underwear?
Yeah. Otherwize I'd forsure feel grody.

21. Have you ever accidentally eaten an insect?
When you sleep you eat lots of insects,so I guess since you aren't conscious in your sleep that counts as on accident. I dont think I've eaten a bug on accident recently...

22. Do daddy long legs freak you out?
They can be very scary depending on where they are located in my house.
The population in my garage is only thriving because they just sit there and chill. Plus, it's not like daddy long legs can even harm you. Their mouths are too small.

23. Have you ever cleaned up someone else's vomit?
Does my cat's vomit count?

24. Have you ever dropped food on the floor and eaten it?
Yeah. It happens.

25. Do you kiss your pets on the mouth?
On the nose.. My cat licks himself.. I have no desire to kiss anyone who licks their own genitles.

27. What serial killer do you find most disturbing?
The ones that haven't been caught.
They could be anywhere.

28. Do you ever talk to the TV?
Not the TV its self unless I find it very engaging..but lately it's been more so at the movie characters..and I don't do it often, considering that is one of my pet peeves.

29. Would you ever work in a retirement home?
Yeah, old people are pretty rad when they aren't all crochty and bitter.

30. Do you believe plants have feelings?
Well, they did do a study that concluded when you pull up a plant, the plant(s) go(es) into shock. So I guess to a certain extent they do have feelings.

31. Do you laugh at people with "bowl" haircuts?
I find bowl haircuts both depressing and hilarious.
If it flatters them, which it most of the time doesn't, I laugh.
If not..I'm game for making eyes at people with bowl haircuts.

32. Do you have nervous twitches?
Yup. Every once in a while my eyelid twitches. .and sometimes my muscles twitch.

33. Are you ever purposely irritating?
Sometimes,although if I'm purposely irritating around you then I probably dont like you that much or I'm in a bad mood.

36. Love or lust?
I'll take both with a side order of privacy, several helpings of honesty and a dash of jealousy.

37. One best friend or 10 aquaintances?
How about both?

38. Favorite food?
It all depends. I'm really into comfort food.

39. Do you believe that your first love never dies?
In a way it won't ever be completely gone. There will always be feeling for the person you fall for like that the first time. I'd imagine that the feeling must be so intense and surreal that you'd never forget it.

40. What upcoming event are you waiting and ready for?
There are four of them. (MAKE IT SEVEN PEOPLE THIS IS MY LAST WEEK BEFORE I LEAVE FOR CAMP)
Tuesday with my mom (♥ quality time..inside jokes)
Wednsday with Julia if we can pull it off♥
Thursday with EVERYONE ♥
Sunday!? camp!

41. Current smell?
My perfume, bathwater, and skin.

42. Do you get your nails done?
Occasionally.

43. Most favorite people?
Friends and close relatives.

44. What was the last thing you ordered at McDonald's?
Vanilla cone and french fries.

45. Are you an emotional person?
Yes, very.

46. Do you like your name?
I think it suits me.

47. What color shirt are you wearing?
Brown and white with shrooms on it.

48. Do you have plans this weekend?
Camp:)

49. Do you work?
Nope..

50. Do you dance naked in your room at night?
Not completely naked.

51. Why did your last relationship end?
Vast distance with little motivation.
Miscomunication.
Hormones.
Lack of desire.
Geniune boredom and character traits that complicated everything.
Stress.
Also, a complete lack of willing to carry on and put forth effort on my part.

52. What are you listening to right now?
Amy Winehouse/My voice/typing. Her CD is so good. It's got this great Motown feel to it, and her voice is heavenly.

53. Biggest fear?
Burning out and slipping past rock bottom. Not living up to my full potential, or at least trying. Giving up. Becoming selfish,vapid and shallow.

55. How long have you been a part of myspace?
3 years this June.

56. Favorite place to be?
At the moment, my bed,the Gilman or Rudy's Can't Fail Cafe..

57. Do you have a crush?
I don't know if you would call it crush.

58. Do you hate anybody?
Nope. I do strongly dislike someone right now.

59. Does anyone hate you?
I hope not. I do think that there are peole who have dislike for me, but you can't please everyone.

60. How many people do you trust ?
Quite a bit of people. I like to think people aren't shitty enough to abuse that.

I'm a nerd/dork.

Sun, 08 Jul 2007 00:59:25 GMT

Thats okay, cause apparently that makes me cuter/almost hot.
Amazing.
The aquarium was awesome..I dragged D everywhere and cooed at all the fish/penguins.
He's so cute.
He's like "You know..this is the only part of the aquarium that doesn't make me nervous" (when we got to the penguins.)
I thought it was kind of adorable.
He reminds me of the lizards..They look at everyone like this " :| ".
Basically.
He looked really cute in his tight jeans today..all skinny like.
I wanted to give him kisses but I didn't think it'd be appropriate in the aquarium what with all the little chilluns running around.
Oh..and by the way..I almost stole someone's child today.
He was adorable..I forget what his name was but he was fearless, and he had the biggest blue eyes you've ever seen.No bullshit. Anyway..he was cute.
Anyone who knows me knows that I love kids.
Despite my complaints about how they can be little shits..
I love em'.
Oh yes..and I'd like to point out that D's tattoos are amazing...
I only saw them for a hot second..but he has one on his torso that just about made me swoon.
Yeah..I said it!
Oh and I pwned him with my nerdiness...
1'/\/\ 5|_| [ |-| 4 |\|3|2 |>
^if you can read that..you have too much time on your hands..
Anywho I'm gonna go watch things on youtube..
xox

Aquarium today beetches!

Sat, 07 Jul 2007 18:14:06 GMT

I'm gonna see the feesshh<3.
I'm so excited. Too bad Steinhart doesn't have WHALES!
It would be so nice to see some whales and sharks..or some squid.
I could draw them too!
I think that's what I'm going to do when I get there..
Draw and take non-flash pictures..
awesome.
Too bad no one cool will be there but D.

Oh well.
Gotta jet.
Updates later.
<3
S.
ps
Go listen to 2*sweet!